Hello (:
Im back , miss me ? kay lame .
Im very exhausted you know !
Didnt sleep at all or shall i say i didnt get to rest that much ?
Hmm .

1st Day of The Chalet ,
Meet Fieyana & Aleen at my school bus stop because Mr Azlan wants to bring us to Downtown East .
Reached school bus stop about nearly 12.30pm .
I tried calling Mr Azlan but he didnt answer my calls .
Then we asked the Security Guard about Mr Azlan , he said that Mr Azlan went for luch .
Grr, I dont mind waiting actually but the weather is freaking hot + i wore long sleeve .
Armpit wet wet uhs . haha .
He finally arrived , he didnt apologise at all . o whatever eh cher .
Put everything in the boot & get seated .
Sat with Aleen behind whereas Fieyana sat with Mr Azlan infront.
We headed to Rippa's place to get the bbq stuffs & mee siam .
She's not sure whether to go or not to go after the incident at Henderson Waves .
I know , you know , the others that were there knows it too .
Well , i was kinda sad becuase Rippa didnt followed me & the other 2 ladies to Downtown East.
Naek car dok . hahaa .
Arrived Downtown East and we waited for Mr Azlan to get the key to get in the chalet .
We sat at the McDonald & talked about the foods for the chalet .
Like finally we reached to our chalet & rest for awhile .
Rest for an hour i guess then headed to NTUC Fairprice to buy chicken , marination stuffs , hotdogs , charcoal , aluminium trays , tongs , fire starter & bbq net .
Luckily we met Anuar & Shafiq while we're otw to Fairprice .
So atleast there is 2 hunks that can help me carry the stuffs but too bad we uses the trolley . lols .
Fieyana told me that she smoke & something else , i was totally disappointed . haish ):
Free entry for me throughout my stay in chalet. Dont have to pay $1 liao .
Hahahaaaaa :D
Bought all the groceries , went back to chalet , rest on the bed , listen to music , eat , marinate chicken , prepare for the bbq , eat a lil bit again & then something baaaaaad happen !
Neena & Nina got drunk , aku sedih sia tengok korang minom . haish .
Neena eventhough you are drunk , you still give us advices .
Still im disappointed .
I did the marination my self , Fieyana helped me to poke the chicken with satay stick .
Can say uh , i prepared all the foods .
Afraid that the others cant do what i asked to do .
Mr Azlan bbq-ed for us .
Anuar & Raimov helped me and Mr Azlan with the bbq .
We bbq corn , potatoes , hotdogs , chicken .
Some helped for awhile only , thanks peepos !(:
Aron says that i looked like a housewife , ohwtf?
Wait wait , my 3 hunks went to the swamp . cb sia , maghrib .
They came back with ghost stories . Hard-headed hunks .
Oh yea , i didnt sleep .
Irfan J accompanied me throughout the sleepless night , thanks bro [:
Before the others went to bed , we watched V3 halfway then Rippa wanted to go to Cheers to buy some sugary stuffs .
Went to Cheers with Irfan J & Rippa around 2am+ .
While we're otw back to our chalet , saw Nek Ka walking towards the entry .
She's finding Aziz , she wants Aziz to be home .
We breeze walk very fast & hide at a diff block .
Can still play hide-and-seek some more .
Then , Aziz really really need to go home . So he went home with his granny .
About 6.15am i text Aziz i ask him to come to the chalet quick because i was very bored .
Most of my friends are asleep .
I can still remember that me , Irfan J , Rippa & Alip snap picture of our masai face .
Weeeeeeeee , seriously ugly but cute :D
Aziz was so thoughtful & he reached chalet before 7.30am , ilyb . i swear .
It was freezing cold , raining seh .
The others still sleeping , cover up the whole body with blanket while i was shivering without a blanket ?
Kay whatever .
Talk with Aziz then accompany Irfan J to the toilet with Aziz .
Irfan J wanted to bathe so me & Aziz waited outside the cubicle .
Hee , dont think negative things ehh .
I bathe when Rippa & Neena is awake .
Take turns to bathe then we went to McDonald to eat breakfast .
Raimov called me & he ate breakfast with us .
The four of us ate McChicken , i didnt finish my meal .
Dont know why .
heh .
After eating went back to chalet , then went to Fairprice again to buy chicken for the second day bbq .
Bought the chicken > chalet > watch V3 again >take a short nap > woke up > many peepos arrived > my face like cb > fired up charcoal > halfway bbq followed Rippa to fetch umi at Taxi Stand > Talk to umi > bbq , marinate chicken again > ate 1 chicken >bbq > met Rippa outside McDonald because she was holding on to my wallet > tried eating subway > chalet again > send umi off at the entrance > chalet > lazy to tidy up the place > i was down > watched Coming Soon > slack with Anuar & Aziz outside our chalet, ghost story telling > back to chalet again > talk talk > take a nap awhile beside Irfan J because i was freaking cold. shared blanket with him > was awake & talked to Anuar because he cant sleep > sat outside or chalet feeling extremely cold > went in again , take a nap > awake due to Anuar's alarm , darn him ! wake him up & i continue resting > woke up around 8+ , we are freaking late > i bathe > tidy up our chalet > mr azlan arrived > final checked the chalet > off we go !




Disappointments :
1) my classmates are not sporting enough
2) most of them had so much fun whereas and i dont because i was busy being a housewife
3) Fieyana smoke & smethg elseee .
4) Sharifah smoke 4 ciggs in less then 2/3hours without telling me & all she do was playing hide-and-seek .
5) Fought with Irfan J .

Im home with unhappiness .
Im sick now because ive been thinking about Fieyana & Rippa lately .
Thanks to Anuar & Aziz , you guys keep me companied when im down .
Especially the night that i cried around 2am+ .
Aziz & Anuar understand me very well . iloveyoubros & thank you so much .
Thanks Shahirah&Haziqah baby , i feel great after meeting/sharing/play football with you guys . iloveyoubabiestoo ! ^_^






Dedicated to Rippa & Effiee ,

Hey lil ladies .
I have to admit that im fcuking disappointed with you ladies .
Sorry for using that harsh word on you both .
I know that you ladies have a major problem , but you dont have to do something that i hate so much!
You ladies have me , im always your shoulder , your listening ears .
Ladies , you used to share with me all your problem .
I helped you in anyways i can to make you ladies happy even if i have to put my life in danger or trouble .
Why smoke when you have someone that can help you out ?
Why easily get influence ?
Why disappoint & make me cry ?
Am i so bad ?
I sacrifice alot of things for you ladies , is this what i get in return ?
Last time you ladies are strong to face your problems , but why not now ?
You get high just to forget things that you know its gonna remain in your mind for a few days or even weeks . I know you both can get over it !
Use your brain ! i love you more then myself .
Ladies tell me , have i ever make you sad ? disappoint you like how the both of you did to me? didnt treat you both well ?
Im fair enough okaay .
I understand the both of you alot , let me emphasize that word ALOT .
I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART .
Im sorry if im not gonna be the Azura that you've known earlier on .
I might change , this is really a big impact in my life .
Ive been listening to the both of you , why cant you listen to me & make me happy ?
Ladies , you dont know that i cried during the 3days2night outside chalet .
I was giving the both of you FAKE SMILES , are you aware of that ?
I didnt entertain you much after i heard your stories .
Understand now?
I understand all your problems okaay .
I feel neglected , un-appreciated . Thats all .
Please stop you bad habits .
Im always tolerating nonsense from you guys , i didnt tell you because i dont want you to feel bad , unhappy or whatsoever shit !
You see, i think about your feelings . why cant you do the same thing to ?
Im patience enough with you ladies .
Im done here .
FYI : my ribcage is in pain , headache , down-ed with fever real soon due to tears .
Wanna know why im sick ? its all about you .
Im gonna promise myself that i wont cry for you both anymore .
My sacrifices are a waste .
Do whatever you want , im not gonna stop anymore . alright ?
Khabir says this to me : you are such a sweet & a nice girl , you dont deserve to be treated like this .
Aziz say this to me : You care about me , you care about my health , you care about the chalet walking in and out as if you were a housewife . you always put urself second whereas your family & friends first . if you have problem , you will put yours aside & deal with your friends problem first & that makes you a nice girl .

How sweet can they be ? they understand my feeling sia .
thanks aziz. whatever aziz say is true .
I guess guys understand me better then girls ( sometimes )
I may be bad , but i always listen to advices .
Eventhough how bad am i , ive never thought of smoking , piercing , tattoo-ing my body OR even hurt myself by doing something stupid.
I love my life , i love me .

Im done .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QNOZy0mB4Ic

Hope you guys have fun on Ammar's bdae celebration .
Im sorry if i cant turn up due to some reasons .

Goodnight , Bubye & takecaree .

Labels: Disappointments are to the soul what the thunder-storm is to the air.

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